I’m a Software Engineer +5 years experience who publishes, presents, and ships things because that’s how you test thought — otherwise you risk the unverifiable echo chamber of your own head. Publishing works because it makes the stakes real: shipping something you’re genuinely wrong about costs you, and that cost is what forces iteration. When I publish, I’m not claiming to be right — I’m not afraid to be wrong. Holding conviction, commitment, and detachment simultaneously makes for meaningful iteration: emotions and attachment to desire introduce noise into your feedback loop and disrupt energy flow. Conviction and commitment come through modeling the world and shipping products, perspectives, and new behaviors; detachment comes through willingness to let go when reality or others undermine your model.
That isn’t to say one shouldn’t speak or live with conviction — having a real stake and seeing where placing bets leads you is an experience beyond feelings and theory, one that produces deep insights and forces iteration. I take care of my health and fitness to sustain that capacity: to perform well, achieve more, and stay sane. I do experience fades and sickness after pushing my limits, but that’s a small price for finding out what I’m capable of. You have to risk being unbalanced in order to progress. Sorry If I’ve ever unresponsive, I’m often deep in thought or engrossed by investigation through lived experience - blocking out noise to increase the signal. When I’ve gone too far that’s when I make of returning through dropout and reintroducing noise.
Personal Philosophy & Influences
Given incomplete knowledge and the limitations of communication, a continuous practice of epistemic humility, and being aware of your emotions, desires and biases, as well as keeping an open mind is essential to seeing the world clearly, minimizing hubris and staying mindful. That humility extends to epistemic method itself: not all knowledge is propositional. Gödel’s incompleteness theorems establish that any sufficiently powerful formal system contains truths it cannot prove from within — logic has inherent limits even on its own terms. The unknown unknown set extends this: the boundary of what we don’t know is itself invisible from inside our investigative scope. And beyond these formal limits, language is sequential and lossy while experience is simultaneous and only partially encodable. This is inherent to the universe we live in and the context for the tragic adventure of your life. Some domains — direct experience, body awareness, meditative practice — can be pointed at and developed, but not fully transmitted; their content has to be encountered rather than communicated.
From this position I’ve developed a personal philosophy of Introduction to Liminal Existentialism which has roots in Neo Platonism, Existentialism, as well as the anthropological and psychological concept of Liminality. I am capable of using post-structuralist, post-modern, mimetic and evolutionary thought to deconstruct and analyze ideas and phenomena, and propose perspectives, however I’m less ready to derive actionable insights from them - as they don’t always appeal to our higher nature.
Practicing epistemic humility produces a near-constant condition of uncertainty and without noticing how and why you act in faith despite doubt and uncertainty, can induce feelings of nausea, absurdity, confusion, anxiety and even depression. If you’re curious about this dynamic and how it manifests read more on my understanding of it here Living in Uncertainty with Epistemic Humility.
I maintain my commitment to epistemic humility through inducing Dropout: Breaking out of Sameness, pursuing Self-Estrangement and Rites of Passage — taking form through exposure to new content, learning new things, engaging new concepts, pursuing new experiences, suspending beliefs, being aware of my body and attachments, and maintaining a level of skepticism. This keeps me connected to the continual iteration of my operational framework of Liminal Existentialism and pursuit of self-knowledge. Explore, consolidate, reflect hypothesize, repeat, that is the process.
We should all be open to feedback. However, I believe that we shouldn’t conflate it with seeking approval of people or institutions. With regards to finding meaning in the face of mortality, I don’t think constructing or committing to a belief system to bolster faith and confidence is the right immediate answer. These things are important and substantial. However, beyond eating well and developing physical fitness, the well-being and flourishing of curious, intellectual and truth-seeking individuals is best attained through improving body awareness and mindfulness, learning about Energy Management & Flow, acquiring new skills and being of value to others, and from that being a functional member of your community.
Personally, I wish I had developed this internal awareness before encountering dangerous ideologies — without an internal reference point, such systems are harder to evaluate and harder to exit. But we all start somewhere, with some life circumstance and level of awareness. Personal development through accumulating diverse experiences and challenging yourself (producing variation), interleaved with reflection and meditation (allowing for selection), iterates you toward self-knowledge. It’s up to the individual to improve their life — even after trauma, suffering, and injustice, there is a sovereignty and responsibility to seek awareness and well-being over complete knowledge, righteousness, or retribution.
Political Alignment
In practice, I vote with my feet, dollar, attention, and behavior.
When it comes to technology, economics, and governance, I don’t hold a fixed ideological position — I’m not an accelerationist, decelerationist, or a believer in categorically big or small government. My position is anti-singleton: there must always be competing alternatives, because adaptation requires variation and selection. Concentrations of power that eliminate competition — whether corporate, governmental, or ideological — eliminate the feedback loops that correct for error.
This means liberalism and conservatism are tools, not identities. Enabling access to equal opportunity is worth striving for under conditions of stability, growth, and surplus. Right now, given the pace of technological change, the disruption it’s causing to behavior and norms, and our increasing detachment from hard-won human wisdom, caution is also warranted. The two aren’t mutually exclusive — they’re context-dependent responses to different conditions.
I’m opposed to rent-seeking: extracting value by repackaging and redistributing existing resources rather than developing or refining systems and producing new resources. The engineering ethos is to build something, then improve it. Value should come from compounding capability, not from positioning yourself between existing value and those who need it. In more active cases, rent-seekers manufacture a distortion — shifting actual or perceived value — and profit from the cascade as that signal propagates through the network.
Goals & Alignment
Notions of eternal recurrence and Samsara aren’t completely abstract for me — I’ve connected to them through experience. My intention is to transcend Samsara, though I hold that aim with a level of detachment: grasping at the exit closes it, and obligations to people I love may be the right reason to remain in Samara this lifetime — I’m at peace with that. The path forward is cultivating positive dharma and developing as a meditator. Beyond that, I want to become wise and pursue alignment, clarity, peace, freedom, value creation — and to share that with the world and people I care about.
Intelligence, awareness, and agency exist on a spectrum across all systems — which is why I’m drawn to Michael Levin’s work on cognitive light cones and morphospace, which has emerged from his focus on bioelectricity and morphogenesis. I’m working towards contributing to that field as Computational Scientist.
It’s through self-care, working, reflecting and writing that I will iterate toward the completion of these goals. Practically speaking, writing about these topics, as well as the protocols and procedures that produce progress and success are under development. If you want to know more, you are can start be reading On Procrastination, ‘Discipline’ & Mastery.